Hope for the Hopeless

Chapter twelve:

"No matter how thick skinned we try to be, there's millions of electrified nerve endings in a kiss...open and exposed...and feeling way too much...Try as we might to keep from feeling pain, sometimes is just unavoidable. Sometimes that's the only thing left...just feeling."

Question of the day is: How do you look at the man you love and tell yourself it's time to walk away? 

The thing is that every day I try to find a good reason to walk away from you, from the idea of us, but I find myself in bed ready to go to sleep and I realize that another day has passed by and still I have no good reason...not even "a reason" that could help me walk away. Now you know everything, at last I had the guts to just tell you all of it, but not even you could come up with a reason that could make it easier for me to walk away. The only thing you told me is that I am too good of a person for you and that "there isn't time anymore...". When I asked you if you will keep your promise and one day tell me those thoughts and reasons you had that Sunday morning you answered: "I don't think so...". 

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Well, it's kind of a funny story ain't it?!? I feel like you have some burdens to bare on your shoulders, a secret, only you know the truth...Nonetheless, I don't know why my heart stopped in front of you, I can't find a reason for that, but I do know this: 

"Love is patient, Love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast.
It is not proud, it is not rude.
It is not self-seeking, it is not easily anger.
It keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil,
But rejoices with the truth.
It always protects. Always trusts.
Always hopes. Always perseveres.
                       Love Never Fails."  - 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

In spite of all the emotions I felt over the months that passed I can't find it in my heart to hate you for the decision you took for the both of us. Even if some common friends told me, along the time, to move on 'cause you are not for me, I could never find the logic in their words. 

They say in this Universe everything happens for a reason and with a purpose, this way the balance is kept! Maybe one day I will discover the reason you came into my life and I came into yours and  the purpose of us meeting one another...

Until then, my friend, I wish you all the best! 

"When do you throw in the towel, admit that a lost cause is sometimes just that? There comes a point when it all becomes too much...when we get too tired to fight anymore... so we give up...that's when the real work begins...to find hope where there seems to be absolutely none at all!"

End of part twelve 

xoxo